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Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4735 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 12:28 am: |
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ABM, it's Kola. Do you remember this? http://www.thumperscorner.com/discus/messages/11223/739.html HA HA!!!!
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Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4738 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 12:45 am: |
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My goodness, look at who all was in this thread! Rondall Sister Shiree Lambd Carey dpoetist
LMAO!!! Thumper Posted on Friday, January 23, 2004 - 03:50 pm: Hello All, This is for the Anonymous and all of the other alais you like to claim (yeah, I did the IP address thang): You know, I'm getting sick and tired of you constantly bringing up Kola. After that big whoopity-doo last year, everyone agreed that this would be a Kola-free zone. I ask that you respect that and let sleeping dogs lie. Now if anyone else who wants to hear what you have to say, please arrange to email them off line then you can converse and praise her from now to when times get better. Thanks.
ABM, this thread is from the time I was BANNED by Thumper, so I never got to thank you for it until NOW, my King..... and may I say in all total honesty that you are SOOOOOOOOOOOOO Talented. It's actually a great poem...and there is such a thing as romantic/erotic poetry.
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Mzuri "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Mzuri
Post Number: 5345 Registered: 01-2006
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 01:41 am: |
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Why didn't you ask him that question while you had him on the phone? http://www.thumperscorner.com/cgi/discus/show.cgi?tpc=1&post=104255#POST104255
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9599 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 05:50 am: |
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Kola, Thanks. That sure was 'something' that went down there. So much discourse, so much emotion expressed over one tiny poem. It's amazing how riled-up some foks got over it. Was it the poem itself that cause all the trouble? Was it because I authored it. Was it because I dedicated it to YOU? Or was it some perfect storm of all the above? We sure used to have FUN here...Didn't we? |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4750 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 10:13 am: |
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Yeah, ABM, we did have fun. I can never figure out what it is that riles up the stupid people on this board so much...about nothing. They think that hatred of someone (me) is new or interesting, and since they don't have talent or integrity, they sling their hatred.
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9601 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: Votes: 2 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 10:26 am: |
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Kola, I wish we could have the fun here we used to have. It seems much more of a mean and hostile aura has settled here. Either that, or I'm getting old and am just much more aware of and bothered by such than I'd previously been. |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4751 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 10:30 am: |
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Also ABM, I believe the poem would have caused a stir even without the "Kola" tie-in. That's what proves it's a poem and that it has merit, the fact that it really moved people. There is quite a bit of subtext in those sparse few lines. And it IS scary, though you being a comic guy--you meant it to be "bent", not ghoulish, but those who lack tact will never vibe with the painting. It's really a GREAT poem! But I've seen countless instances where you can really write--quite better than most of what other black men are publishing nowadays, which is why it's frustrating that you don't get serious about it. You have a very uncommon intellect...a range of emotional understanding that is "inate", it can't be taught. FEW MEN have that, ABM, and that's why it's so important for you to write for black men. It takes enormous complexity to really move people around 'inside' with words, and part of our mutual respect probably hangs on the fact that we're both naturally expressive like that. I've seen whole threads where we've jotted down stone cold literature in POST and REPLIES all typed and posted in 10 minutes. In our "flirty" days...we really used to wax poetic---and I mean good stuff!
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Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4752 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: Votes: 1 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 10:39 am: |
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ABM, You're not old---it really is much more hostile and vicious here. Imagine what awaits me in N.Y. I spoke to Troy on the phone the other night and I just had a very lurking feeling after we hung up that I'm going to have to kick some major ass in the big apple. Since the night my parents were murdered and I stayed with the bodies all night--I have been an extraordinarily perceptive person, and as well, I feel that I am everyone. People insist that I'm crazy, but I feel as though they're a lower level of sensitivity, a lower plane of thought. Weak people hate someone who isn't weak.
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9602 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 10:43 am: |
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Kola, I'll reply after I've, uh...well...just, please, give me moment. |
Chrishayden AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Chrishayden
Post Number: 4926 Registered: 03-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 10:52 am: |
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ABM is cool--even though he's a comicbook fanboy But then so is Walter Moseley and the Hudlins, so that ain't all bad-- |
Yorubaprincess Regular Poster Username: Yorubaprincess
Post Number: 76 Registered: 07-2007
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 11:24 am: |
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Hmph |
Yorubaprincess Regular Poster Username: Yorubaprincess
Post Number: 77 Registered: 07-2007
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 11:29 am: |
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Interesting how Kola returns just as Yorubaprincess arrives. |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4757 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Friday, July 20, 2007 - 02:01 pm: |
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ABM, I've been forced to put your beloved Angelina Jolie on my personal web site if you can believe that. She's in the 5th Photo: http://www.kolaboof.com/gallery.htm
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9605 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 12:54 am: |
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Kola, I appreciate your compliments of my poem. Funny. I was actually attempting to be more obsessive and erotic than chilling and gothic. Sex can be very much an act of violent, ravenous, if not 'vampiric', consumption, I think. And I was trying to tap into that some. You're much more a writer than I'll ever be. In fact, you're more than a mere writer. You're a creator. There’s an urgent, almost even breathless, spritzing of magic amid most every thing you write. If and when I've done well here I am certain it's been largely influenced by my readings of and banter with you (and lament how all the hostility here severely curbs and precludes my muse). So if you must express appreciation for my poetry and other postings, I won't try to stop you. Oh, and THANK You VERY Much!!! I pray you’re PLEASANTLY surprised by your NYC experience. Because you and New York City really are made for each other. |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4767 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:00 am: |
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You're much more a writer than I'll ever be. Not true, ABM...you are gifted. You just write more masculine and clinical, but you're gifted. Hiding and hording your work. You make me sick. Hell, just write about something insane if you can't interested in your book. Write a sci-fi short story. Make me the lead character and that will get your juices flowing. Get a stack of paper and DRAW (as I do) all kinds of faces and scenes and images. That will bring your fire out. You're afraid to write ABM. I don't know why. You're gifted. Pray you're right about New York. I already know that I'm infinitely more powerful than the people against me.
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Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4768 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:06 am: |
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ABM, you know what I think.... I think that you can FEEL there's something inside you that you're supposed to write about, but it's so big and so personal that you become exhausted at just the mere thought of dredging it up and giving it life....its own world. I believe that you might be trying to force yourself to write something (your lady cop book) that isn't really in your soul. There's something "very deep" about you and it's cleverly disguised and hidden by your charm and your devotion to "doing the right thing" even though another part of your is a Cad and a Sinner (like me). But you need to stop being afraid of the elephant in your heart's livingroom and face it down. Shit. Prepare your wife and daughters for the fact that you may have to very well become "possessed" by something inside yourself that you're not totally comfortable with...just to get it on paper. I just don't think you're writing what you're supposed to be writing. But I KNOW you're a writer. You're an artist. I KNOW THAT. Are you afraid to fail?
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9607 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:07 am: |
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Kola, You're right about the "hiding and hording". And WHY you're right makes less and less sense to me. I promise I will write novel featuring someone like you, perhaps just like you even. Though, and you'll hate me, I'm almost tempted to make her WHITE. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!) |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4771 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:12 am: |
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That's very interesting. Why would you make her white, ABM? HA...HA...ha.
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Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4772 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:13 am: |
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You're right about the "hiding and hording". And WHY you're right makes less and less sense to me. What do you mean?
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9608 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:17 am: |
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Kola, Ironically, I think I'm more afraid of SUCCEEDING. Of the responsibility. But, at the risk of sounding arrogant, I've never failed at anything I've earnestly pursued. I do worry about frightening my wife, daughters and others who know and care about me. I've for quite some time erected an image of myself to everyone I fear relenting. Lastly, and I suppose this is the height of artistic cowardice...I have always had this gnawing fear that I'd be driven mad by writing. That I'd get so deep into it, so deep into what it would require of me and what I'd exact from it, that I'll cross a point from which for me there'll be no return. I'm paradoxically frightened and thrilled by that as, say, a born alcoholic might be before he tastes his very first shot of vodka. |
Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9609 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:18 am: |
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Kola: "Why would you make her white..." Divine retribution, I suppose. Hahahahahaha!!! |
Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9610 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:21 am: |
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Me: "You're right about the "hiding and hording". And WHY you're right makes less and less sense to me." Kola: "What do you mean?" Just that it's becoming progressively more difficult for me to rationalize NOT doing what you're imploring here. |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4773 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:24 am: |
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...I have always had this gnawing fear that I'd be driven mad by writing. That happened to me. I get nose bleeds sometimes when I write. Sometimes writing makes me so full of sorrow and hopelessness that I have to get naked and walk around in the woods at night with a shotgun, just crying and shaking! I hate writing, ABM. It's very painful. My autobiography almost caused me to committ suicide---but my sons----that's what keeps me coming back around. You will go crazy if you write. You WILL be intoxicated by it. And it will affect your relationships with your wife and family. But you will also love them even more and remain yourself...for them. Art is not about the self, it's for the world, because they need it from you in order to progress. We need it. |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4774 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:25 am: |
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Kola: "Why would you make her white..." Divine retribution, I suppose. I still don't understand. Do you mean revenge on me?
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9612 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:37 am: |
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Kola: "I have to get naked and walk around in the woods at night with a shotgun, just crying and shaking!" NICE visual! Hell, that ALONE might make some some intriguing literary musings. You're probably right. That I should stare down and wrestle with that literary demon witin. Perhaps I would survive its assaults. It's interesting. My wife wants me to write. But she also knows there's some hot white havoc there just bristering to let loose. And I sense she's frighten and yet turned on by it. You know how while making love we smack you women on the a$$ you yell for us to "sTOP!!!" while praying we do not. Well. Now that I think about it, maybe you're NOT familiar with the yelling "STOP!!!" part. *wink* |
Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9613 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:38 am: |
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Kola, Not revenge. Never that. More paradox, contradiction and irony. And, okay, a little karma. Or could you avoid being what you lament were you yourself...her? |
Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4777 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:44 am: |
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Yeah, ABM, that's my problem. I don't say 'Stop' during sex. And perhaps not even during rape. In fact, I played a character named "SEX" in a movie once and it was me who named her that. I am...a very damaged human being. A kind of beautiful monster in some ways. I hurt.
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Kola_boof AALBC .com Platinum Poster Username: Kola_boof
Post Number: 4778 Registered: 02-2005
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:47 am: |
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I could play a wife, though. Well, when downstairs, at least. Very convincingly. When I was young and beautiful, Simon (Thomas) was mesmerized. OH!!!! I forgot to tell you!! A recent development.... I'm young and beautiful again. HA HA!!! Didn't you wonder why I was so eager to go on tour?
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Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9615 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:49 am: |
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Kola, A beautiful, fiery, sexy, immensely talented but damaged monster...who does not know how to say "Stop". I'm getting erect at the possibilities... |
Abm "Cyniquian" Level Poster Username: Abm
Post Number: 9616 Registered: 04-2004
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 01:51 am: |
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Kola, I figured you had some work done. Hopefully, you don't have that ghastly standing in a windtunnel look. That sh*t frightens kids and animals. |
Yorubaprincess Regular Poster Username: Yorubaprincess
Post Number: 88 Registered: 07-2007
Rating: N/A Votes: 0 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 03:47 am: |
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"ABM, it's Kola. " We know it's Kola because your user name is on the post, you dumb beyotch. |
Yorubaprincess Regular Poster Username: Yorubaprincess
Post Number: 89 Registered: 07-2007
Rating: Votes: 1 (Vote!) | Posted on Saturday, July 21, 2007 - 03:51 am: |
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"I am...a very damaged human being." Finally, FINALLY: you are being honest with us Kola. Thanks for that. "A kind of beautiful monster in some ways." Monster, yes. Beautiful, not at all. Not even pretty in fact. But great tits! |